One night as my prayer I asked God to help me find my way in life. Over about a 5 year period God sent people into my life that made me happy and made me sad at the same time. Some made me happy by being apart of my life but them being a part of my life made me sad. Some made me sad they were a short part of my life but I was so happy to have known them that it didn’t matter. After enduring receiving what I had asked for from God I looked back on the five years to see exactly what god did for me and I saw that God gave me control to determine who comes in and out of my life and the mind to understand how much their value affects my happiness.  This control came from understanding my feelings and using them to guide the decisions I made in attempts to obtain the happiness I knew I deserved. When was the last time u looked at what God did for you thru you?

I never thought I’d say I’d hate the day that I met you 

Ima about to wipe my eye as I continue to try new ways to forget you 

I stayed awake last night 

Waiting for you to text me back 

I saw the read time stamp on the message I sent that u only looked at 

Why do I wrap my mind in wasting time on and your crap 

I’ve gotta take my words apply what’s heard stop looking back 

This revolving door 

can’t revolve no more 

I’m laying on the floor

looking out an open door

That you walked thru 

That’s it 

Time is up for you 

Girl I think we thru 

I can’t get thru to you 

Why am I always the one this happens to 

I gotta do 

What’s best for me 

Baby don’t check for me

Let it got respectfully  

You will never have respect for me 

You chasing love and stds 

By CWhit